8. I want to die but I need to lose my belly fat first.

female, black.

7. When my eating disorder was at it’s prime, i went on baking sprees, and giving all my pastries to my thin friends. I wanted to see for myself that eating wont make you gain weight instantly. I hate living like this.

6. I’m scared…

Just recently I have stopped SI, and I’m scared because people have begun to expect me to be crazy… I’m worried I’ll be pressured into doing it again.

5. I feel like I am worthless. I got bullied in school because of my appearance and have really low self esteem, I have devoloped disordered eating and I self harm regularly, I starve, purge, binge and feel guilt all the time. The sad thing is most of my followers on tumblr know me better than my so called ‘friends’ at school.

 14.British.Female.UK

4. I am a dancer and teacher who always talks about how important good nutrition is, yet I am anorexic and no one knows.

3. My mother is adopted so I don’t know my ethnic extraction entirely; but I do know that I have a lot of Iroquois blood in me. I cling to that, and I’m very proud. I correct people when they say I’m white.

2. I feel so anxious about Thanksgiving and all the food I will HAVE to eat.

Black, Female, US.

1.I hate always feeling bad about myself, not enough. Even when it comes to cutting and eating disorders. I never feel like I bleed enough or starve enough. Why can’t I do something right?